Thursday, 27 November 2014

An update on life

Bad news often comes in three's. 
Mine all came on one day. My boyfriend left me and my mum found out she had cancer.

That was pretty much the last time I blogged.

I was in a pretty bad place to start with. Skip forward three months and thanks to a number of people and someone very special, things aren't looking as bad. 

My initial heartbreak soon turned into the realisation that my relationship was over many years ago. We both should have realised and moved on. but habits are hard to break. It took eight years to break this one.

Mama bear is still very ill. The cancer is advancing and the first round of chemo hasn't working. We now have to concentrate on getting her stronger so she can try a different chemo. She is a tough bird, and will fight as long as she can. 

BUT, today is my birthday and I am 29 years old. In the past months I have realised that life is too short to regret what I haven't done and concentrate on the thing I want to do. 

Blogging is one of them. 

This is my outlet and my therapy. My little place on the internet that is all mine. I don't have to pass anything by anyone and I don't need anyone else approval. IT IS FOR ME!

I am beginning to feel more like Toni again.




7 comments :

  1. You're so strong hun and I have no doubt that things will pick up for you soon enough! I'm glad to hear you're feeling more yourself, I'll come visit soon and we can have a fun girly day! You know where I am if you ever need to talk or rant! <3 xxx

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  2. Sending you all my love and hugs, and healing thoughts to your mum. Life likes to give us a kick and at times it all seems too much but you are a beautiful and strong woman who deserves to be happy. It has been so long since I last saw you, hopefully 2015 will bring us to somewhere at the same time. xx

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  3. I wish I could come and see you and give you a big hug! I am so sorry you've been having such a crappy time lately. You are being an amazing support to your mum and your family so don't forget that. It's good to hear you are feeling a bit better lately and I look forward to seeing you blogging again as I've missed your posts. Love you loads missus xxxxxxxx

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  4. So glad to hear that you are feeling more yourself. You certainly have had a rough time and it is understandable that you have been feeling low. Sending a big hug to you and positive thoughts to your mum xx

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  5. Sending massive hugs and positive thoughts to you and your mum. Xx

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  6. Welcome back! Sending hugs to you and your mum xx

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  7. Your mom would be proud of you x

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